I have lost count of the amount of hands that run along the outside
wall that I hear while I am in here. People obviously know I am in here,
or are trying to check if there is someone in here, and for a brief moment
my attention is brought back to the close space outside the cupboard. Staring
at this screen for so long makes you see things differently, things are
without substance - and I am not talking the 'virtual' here I am talking
the emptying of my space.
The sounds are welcome distractions for me. They remind me of the
importance the outside world has for me and how I am avoiding it, for whatever
reason that drove me to do this ( and believe me I have been questioning
it in here ). It's not really avoiding though, not really hiding.